Bristol’s Random Thoughts, Not That Anyone Cares
I've been known to be, shall we say, a bit 'random' on occasion. In fact, for years I closed my show with the bit, 'Random Thoughts, Not that Anyone Cares.' It was a way for me to get some of the crap that is constantly ping ponging around inside of my head out so I can move on and so that you feel a little better about your life. Today, it's all about the sheer joy and satisfaction of the primal scream.
Have you ever had one of those days where you're left wondering what you did in a past life to piss off the universe so badly? Today was one of those days for me and what sucked about it even more is that it's coming so close after an amazing girl's trip to Colorado. Man, I wish I would have taken the opportunity to belt out one heck of a primal scream while I was in the mountains. That would have been seriously cathartic. However, screaming at the top of your lungs in your backyard works, too. Trust me, I did it tonight. Pro tip: let that scream rip from the bottom of your diaphragm! More air equals more power which means you get a bigger, longer scream which measures up to more stress relief!
So what are we screaming about tonight? Let's see, I have a horse that is basically trying to give me a heart attack everytime I turn around by trying to die on me. The emotional and financial stress is kicking my butt. I'm scared to death that I'm going to have to make a decision soon. On top of that, my heart dog, Cyrus, isn't acting right. I'm watching him closely tonight. I pray there's not another vet office visit in my future. I already dropped a bunch of money there today on horse and dog meds. That's what credit cards are for, right?
Let's see, I found out today that my homeowners insurance declined my claim regarding my master bath. My shower pan literally collapsed due to a leak and the subfloor is trashed. I'm not a happy girl. But I can't complain, my car insurance has really been spot on this year with all of our storms, I'm just really tired of driving a rental.
On top of that, I've got a friend, or I guess someone whom I thought was a friend, acting like a real jerk. Unfortunately, it's not the first or second time I've had this type of an issue with this individual and I'm going to have to cut ties. No one looks forward to that.
Lastly, I dropped a dang board on my poor 75-year-old momma's arm and it scratched her up good. I think that's the worst out of my list of grievances, if one were prone to ranking things.
However, in true growth mode, I have to balance things out with the positive. Where there's a will, there's a way and I know that God will provide. I had lunch with a wonderful Christian sister of mine today and she reminded me that God is always listening and by your side, especially during your lowest points. He just has a sense of humor about things sometimes;) The things that count are your family, friends and faith. If you and your loved ones are happy and healthy, what more can you ask for?
So, in short, putting it all out there in prayer, print, or a primal scream works. I know I feel better already. Thanks for helping me put it all in perspective and remember, if the world didn't suck, we'd all fall off!